Day 13: open mike. What a complete disaster. Wasn't able to make it through my first two songs. I was totally lost and couldn't remember what to do next. I've been playing these songs regularly for YEARS but just couldn't do it. I rehearsed my sets ~15 times, all last night and this morning and still was a complete failure. Honestly I don't know what to do next. Makes me wonder if I'm ever going to pick up a guitar again. What an embarrassment. Obviously I just don't have what it takes.