Where Were The Nerves?
I played my newest original at an open mic last night. It was a round robin setup with about 20 performers and I was second from the end. The guy just before me was a seasoned entertainer who has played onstage with Gordon Lightfoot, Kristofferson and countless others. He’s also a phenomenal picker. Not someone I wanted to follow since I’m an advanced hobbyist. My nerves were almost totally out of control as the applause for him died down. I was glad everyone was wearing masks so nobody could see my mouth breathing hyperventilating! I launched into my song with a fingerstyle arrangement following the best fingerstyle picker who’d ever been to this open mic. I perceived my voice to be struggling and almost choking. I nearly gave up halfway through. Imagine my complete surprise today as I watched a video someone took of me and posted on Facebook. The best description is my performance was flawless. I could hardly believe I was watching the same performance that had me wanting to slink out in embarrassment. I have no explanation for how such a panic filled moment came out so well. None whatsoever.
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Congratulations.
I remember an interview with a famous pro football player at a Super Bowl and when asked if they were nervous ... he said "Hell yes I'm nervous, show me someone that's not nervous and I'll show you someone that does not deserve to be here today." As a musician you'll have good days and bad days. Everyone does. Over the years when I thought our band was playing just awful, someone would approach us after a gig and tell us how much they enjoyed the music. And just the reverse after a flawless performance of a complicated piece...silence. Chalk it up and file it in the file labeled "Go Figure" |
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Now make the most of it by watching it a bunch of times, and know that for all intents & purposes, it IS YOU PERFORMING WHILE CALM. Regards, Howard Emerson |
A standard rule while performing is to look like you are having fun and don't acknowledge any errors or flubs. Entertaining is the act of selling a fantasy.
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You should become a politician as you can control external appearance while struggling with internal emotions.
When I'm nervous, I start to shake and can't even speak. |
Congrats. I had a similar experience. I haven't played in over a decade and i had a few months to prepare for a talent show at my workplace. I was literally shaking and just praying i could make it through the piece. The video, however, does not show me shaking or being nervous at all....and I even squeaked by with a 3rd place finish.
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I've never performed, but we are our own worse critics.
That's why we keep practicing and improving, although not to our ears :D |
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I'm still surprised to see video of myself performing and how relaxed I look. I'm not normally as nervous as you describe, to be honest, but - even after over 50 years doing it - I'm always self-conscious and don't often feel relaxed. (I still suffer from impostor syndrome, to some degree.) It's an important lesson for conquering stage fright, because the problem is that it multiplies (like feedback!) if you think the audience can see it - and they can't. Not unless you really are red-faced and stumbling over your words - and even then it never looks as bad as it feels to you. |
In my work as a recording engineer/producer this has real ramifications: musicians often mistake what they are feeling for how they are playing. Let me explain: When you are playing, you know how you are approaching each note and chord. You know when you loose concentration and struggle to land the next chord or note. Microseconds turn into lifetimes, etc. That can blind you to whether or not you actually pull it off. What's more, those feelings can linger for a good while, so that you still perceive your feelings rather than your actual performance. You remember what it took to pull of a particular move as you listen back. That's a good argument for two things:
a) this is part of what a producer is for. He is outside yourself and is only hearing the product, not the effort. He can tell you that you produced a success while you are still feeling the effort that went into it. b) this is one of the reasons why people tell you to put space between the performance and a playback - so that the grip of the effort wears off and you are able to listen to it as a product, not an effort. However, the ability to screen out your feelings and only listen to the product is a skill that can and should be developed. It is a skill that is highly useful if you are to work as sessions player. Bob |
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https://youtu.be/apWz-qFGfSU
Just by way of illustration, this is the original I played. You see it’s semi long which prolonged my agony and brief desire to bail. This isn’t from the open mic. I intended this as an Americana tune. I wrote it after seeing a framed pic in an antique shop. It was of a young mountain man looking guy sitting slumped in a chair on the porch of a rustic cabin. The porch was lined with flowerboxes containing obviously dead flowers. I imagined he had recently lost a woman in his life who planted the flowers. The lyrics became the man describing his woman in terms he would observe from his Appalachian environment. In my panic while performing this I thought people weren’t absorbing the story but actually a few replies when the video was posted online by someone had complimentary remarks about it. The organizer of the event said she liked my style. Still, I’d love to have been relaxed and confident when I played it. Now I’m gonna have to battle worries the anxiety will reoccur even though the video didn’t reveal any traces of it! |
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